First off, happy new month guys! I hope the month of July is off to a great start for you. Might I add that it’s my birth month…whoop whoop!
Today I will be talking about how I intentionally got my life on the path that I have always wanted.
I’m in my twenties and while growing up I had to battle with self-esteem, confidence, never thinking of myself first and always thinking I wasn’t good enough for the number one spot either at school or outside school. I was practically averaging (not sure there’s a word like that) my way through life. But you get my point, right?
I am a Christian and from a very reserved home, and I appreciate my upbringing because the values it instilled in me have gone a long way in making me who I am today. However this kind of upbringing has a way of boxing up your mind as to what kind of job is suitable for you, what career paths are acceptable, what kind of activities you can be involved in, and all of that. It never really gives you room to be imaginative, consider possibilities outside the box and be a free spirit. It is up to you to find a way to strike a balance so that at the end of the day you have lived a purposeful and happy (very important) life.
“You owe it to yourself to live, I mean truly live and to go after the life you have always wanted. Let nobody tell you otherwise” – WB
Prior to starting my blog, I had a normal life, normal goals, normal everything but I have realised that normal just won’t cut it for me.
Almost all my life I have been unsatisfied with who I was because I always felt I could do or be more. Although, the feeling has been more intense these past two years. Now that I think about it, I feel I was a bit too hard on myself.
I wanted to do so many things but there were so many restrictions both in my mind and in reality, like what would people say, is it the right thing to do, will my parents support me? bla bla bla…. I was even scared of being laughed at. Lol
I saw potentials in myself that nobody else saw and the only way to show them was to first get out of my own way and be unapologetically myself.
Every morning I would wake up and say “I’m changing my life” but would always find one reason or the other to hang on to the life I was so unsatisfied with (You can’t blame me though, it was the only life I ever knew). I thought I could merge the life I had with the one I wanted but boy was I wrong! I eventually realised that this move was going to cost me some of the things I actually liked about my normal life because growth and comfort can’t work together. So sometime in November 2016 I decided to embark on a deliberate physical, emotional and mental separation from the life I once knew. I lost friends, It was hard and scary but absolutely necessary. People didn’t understand but then again they didn’t need to.
“There are far better things ahead than we leave behind”
Fast forward to July 2017 I’m still healing, evolving but loving every inch of my being. I wake up more energised, I am more enthusiastic about life, making new friends, my mind is open to opportunities all around me, I feel like there is nothing I can’t do and I even started my own blog.
Now I’m all about a life of self-expression and happiness, not building my life around people’s thoughts or opinions.
I have a passion for writing, sharing lessons I have learnt as well as personal victories. I also love to assist others with the knowledge I have and help them overcome similar struggles through my experiences and that is exactly what I am going to do.
I am on a journey, deliberately and intentionally changing my life and this blog is a huge part of that process.
“Don’t be too scared of disappointing other people that you end up disappointing yourself”- WB
Thanks for taking time out to read.
Have you ever felt caged, held down by opinions or judgements of people or generally unsatisfied with the situation of things around you? Have you ever felt the need to break out of stereotypical beliefs about you? What did you do? and how did you go about it?
Let me know your thoughts.
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